I love my hubby!

For the last couple of days I have been feeling bad for myself because I don’t have my mom. I went to two showers this weekend for my cousins. I am so incredibly excited for my cousins, but at the same time I couldn’t help but feel sad that I won’t have my mom at my shower or to shop with me for baby things. (No, this doesn’t mean that we are going to have kids anytime soon. I am just a planner so I’m always thinking of the future. ) I am lucky to have family that is so willing to help me, but there are some things you only want to do with your mom like shop for nursing bras! Right in the middle of feeling sad I got mad at myself. I am so blessed to have the family and the husband that I do to support me. I love my family so much, but right now I need to take the time to explain why I am so lucky to have my husband and “publicly” thank him. I don’t tell him enough how much he means to me.

I love Derek! From the second we met we “clicked”! Pretty soon, he was introduced to my crazy life. I met him about four months after my mom passed away. Obviously, the emotions were very fresh and we were going through a lot. He was so sensitive about everything, and still is! Derek had to take on o much more than normal boyfriends do. He had to comfort me from emotional breakdowns, physically help with things around the house, moving, understanding that the role I had taken on was not a normal one, etc, etc. Not once did he complain. When we got engaged I had help from family and friends, but there are some things that you only want to do with your mom. Derek did whatever he could fill the void I was feeling. My sports loving, ESPN watching, paintball playing husband now knows more about the color “lapis”, wedding invitations and bridal showers than I think he ever wanted to! He never once complained. He works so hard to make sure that we are secure and happy. Without him, I don’t know if I would be able to still be in school. He knows how important it is to me and how important it was to my mom so he won’t let me quit! He pushes me to do my best! He is always there to talk some sense into me when I start to freak out, cuddle me when I’m sad and make me feel special! I look forward to the time of day when we are both home together! I love being with him!

Derek is my best friend! I know he’ll be mad at me for posting this because it will embarrass him, but I wanted him and everyone else to know how much he means to me! I know that when the time comes to have children, Even though it will be difficult going through it without my mom, Derek will be there. I am so lucky to have him to share it with! I know even though he may not want to, he will be there to help me with whatever I need, even if this means shopping for nursing bras!